Curly hair

When my hair started growing back last year, for the first time in 9 years, it came back super curly. I was bald except at the nape of my neck, and 4 months after stopping I had a full head of thick curly hair. Very short hair, but it was mine. 

As it got longer and I began getting trims, I lost my curls. I was definitely sad about it, I had so much fun with curly hair, but it was also fun having to think of new ways to do my hair. Straightening, dying, clips, braids, ponytails... it had been a long long time. 

These last few months I've pulled enough from the top of head that when it grows back it'll turn the majority of my head curly. Boy will that look weird, Some long and straight, some short and curly. I'm looking forward to having to worry about that. 

So... yesterday after my post.... 

I didn't pull!! Bet you thought I was going to say I did, huh? I don't blame you. 

Except for those 4 accidental pulls in the morning, I refrained the urge AND stayed conscious about it. Today is day one, pull free. 

I did have a problem yesterday though that needs to be addressed... I didn't keep my fingers out of my hair. I kept searching and looking. There were two times where I really really REALLY wanted to pull, but didn't :D There were two times though that instead of pulling, I stretched the hair out, trying to fix the crinkli-ness of it, and the hair broke. It didn't pull out, so there was no relief in that sense, but I was still a bit upset with myself. 

When I was doing well and hadn't pulled in months I would play with my hair in such a way, my fingers would be busy searching and finding, but I wouldn't pull. My husband told me that I shouldn't even do that, and I defended myself saying I had proven my strength and it would be ok. 

He was right. I can't even play around with it. It's like an alcoholic holding a beer but saying they won't drink it. Hold it long enough and they'll take a sip. Before they know it, the bottle is empty and they're reaching for another. 

This morning I've been playing a lot again. I'm finding a lot of short hairs that are really ideal for plucking.... they're curly and crinkly and it drives me nuts  to find them and leave them. 

So I'm going to go stay busy now, my two year old can help with that. I think today will be a good day :)