well THAT sucked.

I did great yesterday. All day, not one hair. I played with my hair but left everything intact. 

Until bed time. 

I found one single hair that really needed to get out. The release was huge. But it didn't last. 

That one turned to six. 

Then six turned into a two hour pulling session. 

I couldn't stop. And I didn't stop until I was so miserably tired that I couldn't keep my eyes open. My arm was tired, my fingers hurt, and my bare spot is now more bare if not bald. It's depressing and I already feel myself resorting back to the "wig era" where I just don't take care of myself. This morning I didn't want to touch my hair and threw a stupid headband on and it looks like crap. 

So far today I've only pulled one and it was on complete accident. Which in my book is better than intentionally. It's giving in to the urge that is completely evil. 

I don't know if I have hope for the rest of the day. I'm going to be a lot more cautious tonight at bedtime. I know that being tired, and bored, and watching TV is prime time for pulling, so I have to think of a plan to prepare for those times. 

I need to vacuum the bedroom now, it's littered with hair.